I have done 3 big things in this past year. Probably all things that, had you asked me three or four years ago, I would have told you weren’t likely to happen. Moving abroad. Listening to other’s stories…it has a way of challenging you.
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So…what are the three things I’ve done?
- Moved Abroad (obviously!)
- Read the Bible in its entirety- from cover to cover
- Voted for a Democrat (please don’t leave now)
Again, things I’ve done that I never thought ten years ago would be on my “I’ve done that” list. Surprisingly, but also not surprisingly, all three of these things are remarkably intertwined.
Parts of me feels like the same Kelly before we moved, but other parts feel really different.
Of course, moving abroad is going to bring about some big changes. Some of the first growth for me was around learning about other cultures. I realized how naive and closed-minded I had been living back home. All while thinking that I was open-minded. (Also, I’m very aware of how limited my understanding of different cultures still are seeing as I am still in a Western country with all the Western norms I have back home.)
When we first moved here we were required to attend a 2-day cultural training on the German culture. It was rather boring content but our Coach made it entertaining, at least for me…Cody, not so much. Essentially we sat in a 12×8 room for 8 hours each day and talked about the German culture. She talked so much that even my brain hurt after the first day, so it’s safe to say Cody was really exhausted by the whole thing.
But I learned SO much during those few hours. I learned that Germans have hard exteriors but the softest interiors. I learned that Germans plan everything months in advance in order to avoid risk- something they do not like. I learned that if you ask a German to give you a ride home and they say no, they aren’t being rude, they are being honest. I even learned that asking a German “do you need a knife?” is equivalent to asking a Texan “do you own a gun?” OF COURSE, THE ANSWER IS YES- WHAT DO YOU THINK I AM? AN IMBECILE?
All of those truths I learned in those four walls proved themselves to be true once I began making friends with Germans. They really do have the softest interiors, once they open up to you. A couple of the German girls I’ve become friends with here will be friends I keep for a long, long time. And yes, I learned that it is true, you must eat every meal with a knife.
But the one thing I have come to terms the most is that America isn’t the greatest. (Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE America and proudly wear my ‘Merica shirt any chance I can get.)
But the American way isn’t always the best way. There are other ways. Other ways that are different, valid, beautiful.
One of the ugliest things I have dealt with since moving here is recognizing the prejudice I carry in my own heart. I’ve recognized biases and prejudices towards cultures and people back home.
It’s been sad and disgusting to see things in my own heart that cause me to feel superior simply because of the color of my skin or the language that I speak.
These aren’t things I ever set out to think or feel, but are a result of the culture in which we live.
It’s what I’m learning and growing in as I navigate living in a culture that isn’t mine.
I’ve also learned about less “ugly” things like the importance of recycling. How easy it really is to have 3 tiny trash cans + 1 compost bin. Like…if you saw our trash cans, you would be amazed to know that we take our trash out once a week, despite how tiny they are.
Why are we, Americans, probably the most developed country in the world, still throwing all trash into one bin and whisking it off to a landfill? I just don’t get it.
But that’s what I’m grateful for. Moving here I would have never known that there are other ways of doing things. I mean…yes, I know there are other ways of doing things. But, I would have just trusted the “norm” of homelife as what’s best.
Reading the Bible
The second big thing I’ve done in the last 18 months is reading the Bible from beginning to end. At the end of 2018, shortly after we moved here, I decided I wanted to read the whole Bible. I no longer had a small group to do a Bible Study with so this felt like a logical way to spend my daily time with God.
Plus, my new Bible had a 1-year reading plan in the back of it, so this felt like a good decision.
In the amazing, funny, way God works, I listened to a Happy Hour podcast with a girl from Dallas named Tara-Leigh Cobble who was going to be starting a podcast that read through the Bible, chronologically, in one year. Each day we would read, and then she would recap. Rinse, wash, repeat x 365.
This felt like a love note from God. A way for me to read his Word, make sense of it, and connect with others back home doing the same thing.
And I did it! I didn’t read every day. Some days I missed. Some weeks we were traveling and my Bible isn’t the easiest thing to pack when traveling. (I literally try every time… I think “this will be the time I do it!” and I bring it, and never even touch it.)
But, at 11:53 PM on December 31, 2019, I read the very last line “ ‘Yes, I am coming soon.’ Amen. Come, Lord Jesus. The grace of the Lord Jesus be with God’s people. Amen.”
I learned two major things in my time reading the bible, outside of just understanding the Bible as one whole story woven together.
- God and his immense kindness
- Jesus is LOVE
First, I now understand what God is trying to accomplish in some of those hard to read passages in the Old Testament. You know the ones…where he kills nations of people for no apparent reason. Well, there’s a reason. And it’s to bring about his love to his people. And it’s always, always, after multiple opportunities to turn back to God.
That last one, though… Jesus is Love. It has rocked my world to say the least. It has caused me to rethink SO many things. It has caused me to examine the ideas and beliefs I have held tightly for so long. It has caused me to look at people differently. It has caused me to not only read the words I see on the pages of my Bible but to actually take the time to look up the original language and see what the true meaning is behind those words. It has caused me to challenge God and His word. Not because I don’t think it’s true. But because I want to KNOW it is true.
Challenging my Beliefs
All of this, that I’m about to write, happened prior to the 2020 Election season ramping up. And I’m so glad it did.
Living in Europe + seeing Jesus as love really caused me to challenge my political beliefs, the ones I grew up believing and found to be the “best.”
I started asking questions. Mainly to myself and to Cody. But often my old beliefs and Cody’s answers didn’t sit well with me, and what I knew about Jesus’ call to love others. So I started looking for answers- things to help me understand why I believed the way I did or things to help me think about things differently.
I didn’t know where to begin, it was all so overwhelming. In fact, my normal thought process was “politics don’t make sense to me, so I just don’t pay attention.”
It’s true. Politics DON’T make sense to me. But the most entitled thing I can do is ignore it. So many people around the globe, and in our very own country, don’t have the freedom to ignore politics because politics affect their day to day lives.
After reading through the Old Testament and seeing how many times God calls the Israelites to take care of the poor and knowing what I do about Jesus and his call for the provision of the orphans, I just kept thinking “how can I ignore politics?” Politics are the very thing that creates systems to take care of the poor and orphans. And I chose to ignore it for 28 years.
Nope, no more.
So I started listening. I started reading. I listened to things that fell into my “ideas” and things that didn’t. I still probably have a very limited scope of what I am consuming, but there is SO much out there that I have found a few resources that I consult frequently, and then that’s it.
I keep my Dad and Cody on call for the more “conservative” view on things. I listen to The Pantsuit Politics podcast and read The New York Times daily headlines to give me a more liberal viewpoint. (Although, what I love about Pantsuit Politics is that both of the hosts hold very different views on some things (and of course the same on others), but I get to hear from both sides of the aisle.) I also enjoy listening to The Daily podcast for news. It may be swayed one way, I’m not entirely sure, but it educates me nonetheless.
And that’s the point! Listening to only one side of things is so detrimental. If we aren’t taking time to listen to other’s viewpoints, if we aren’t taking the time to listen to other’s stories and just so hell-bent on our way being the right way- how is that Christian at all?
As a Christian, one of the most important things I can do is to listen to people’s stories to educate myself and challenge what it is I believe. I need to hear people’s stories to remind me that my way isn’t the only way. I need to find out what really lines up with scripture, or what’s just an idea passed down to me.
Voting for a Democrat
The more I learned about Trump, the more uncomfortable I felt about being in the party that supported him. The more I watched and listened to the impeachment trials, the more I realized that what was happening WASN’T okay.
So when it came time for the Texas primaries, I felt I had to do something. And the only way I could “do something” to counteract Trump (and at this point, the whole Republican party that appears to only worry about protecting their leader and themselves, instead of the people they represent), was to vote for a Democrat in the primary. Which meant switching my political party.
I struggled with this. Mostly, I think, because it meant going against my Dad. I tell Cody all the time “you are really smart, but I’m sorry, I will always think of my Dad as smarter.” Luckily, he isn’t offended by it. Because I think he knows, too, that my Dad is really thoughtful in everything he does.
So going against my Dad, a man I trust with all of me, was difficult. Plus, it felt like I was trying to do the more “woke” thing and become a girl in her twenties that was “so enlightened and now knows everything.”
Sidestory: I remember my Dad once telling me something although he probably has no recollection of this. It’s those little things parents say off the cuff that stick with you forever.
Anyways, he told me it’s pretty typical for kids to think like their parents while they are growing up. Then, when they are finally on their own and making their own money (which is usually not a lot) the kids usually decide that the Democrat way is better (ya know, cause it helps ’em out with money and whatnot). But once they actually start making money, they always come back to the Republican way (whether he meant to imply this or not, the implication I understood was “come back to the Republican way that is better”)
I didn’t want to be someone who is just going with the flow because that is the woke thing to do. I hope and pray often that all of my choices are rooted in God’s desire for me and Scripture, not in being with the “societal norm.”
Why am I telling you this?
The whole point of this post I am writing, is to share my story of putting myself in situations that challenge my norm. When I did that, I realized things I once believed so passionately about, weren’t as important anymore. Instead, I feel like God calls me (us) to take care of others. And switching my political party felt like what I needed to do to stay true to what God has called me (us) to…taking care of others.
Also, something I learned from my Pantsuit Politics ladies, is that a political party isn’t an identity. Which I think so many of us feel right now. It’s me against you, us against them, Republicans vs. Democrats. (P.S.- can we please go the German way that has more than two political parties? Or a system that allows us to rank our votes?)
Once I realized that just like switching my political party this season doesn’t mean I can’t ever switch it back, it gave me so much freedom.
I wonder what our country would be like if we all felt a little less tied to our political parties and a little more invested in thinking critically about the parties we sign up under. Taking the things they are saying with a grain of salt and also listening to the other side, then combining both of those together to form an opinion.
I hope that you are willing to challenge things you believe. Not to change your views, but to solidify them. Sure, maybe they will change or shift…but is that such a bad thing?
I have had the book I Think You’re Wrong (But I’m Listening) sitting on my “to read” pile for a few months now. I keep waiting for the “right time” to read it. I don’t know what that means. But, it seems like now is the right time.
If anyone wants to read along with me, I’d love to have a partner to discuss things with. Here’s a quick synopsis for the book.
More than ever, politics seems driven by conflict and anger. People sitting together in pews every Sunday have started to feel like strangers, loved ones at the dinner table like enemies. Toxic political dialogue, hate-filled rants on social media, and agenda-driven news stories have become the new norm. It’s exhausting, and it’s too much.
In I Think You’re Wrong (But I’m Listening), two working moms from opposite ends of the political spectrum contend that there is a better way. They believe that we can choose to respect the dignity of every person, choose to recognize that issues are nuanced and can’t be reduced to political talking points, choose to listen in order to understand, choose gentleness, and patience.
Thanks for reading along and being willing to read my words. My hope and prayer is that we will all think a little bit more critically about what it is we believe to be true.
A few additional resources that have helped me along the way, if you are interested:
- The Happy Hour Podcast with Jamie Ivey and Tess Clarke
- White, Evangelical and Worried About Trump (podcast)
- Beto O’Rourke May Benefit From an Unlikely Support Group: White Evangelical Women (article and still a good read despite Beto obviously no longer being in the race)
- Pantsuit Politics Podcast
- I Think You’re Wrong but I’m Listening book
- The Bible Recap
Until next time,